Depth

Today in my Lit. class we were discussing furthering your education, and things that go along those lines. The first thing we discussed was knowing where your going. When you are 18 years old, you have many many people asking you what you are going to do with your life, where your going to be in ten, or twenty years, etc, etc. Now think about this, you are 18 years old. Your life isn't even 1/4 over yet, and you have someone asking what your going to be doing for the rest of it. Does this make sense to you? College isn't about perfecting what your going to be doing, its about finding out what you should be doing. College is about self-realization. You can have an idea of what you like, or what you think you may be doing further down the road, but don't set your life in stone just yet. Life gives you some pretty interesting twists and turns, and sometimes the path your on breaks completely, and you have to find a new way to go. But if your worried about how you think your life should be going, then you never get to take the road that is set before you, because your too busy trying to follow your own.

We also talked about learning, and why people hate going to class and learning about things. Now, I am the number one example for this with math and science. I have always hated math and science with a fiery passion. My reasoning was that I wasn't any good at it and that it wasn't interesting, and that it didn't apply to real life situations. This is the view that many people have when it comes to certain educational experiences, and it ruins our learning becuase of it. We're always too focused on how much we hate the subject to actually see the beauty in it. Instead of focusing on the things that we hate about it, we need to try to make it fun. How do we make it fun? Thats up to you! What interests you in life? What makes things fun for you? If you like to read stories then turn what you learning into a story. If you like theater, turn what you learning into a production. I had never thought of this before and the realization was like a light bulb going off! Now when I go to class, I love it!

I dont know if this sounds really dumb, but I thought it was really interesting to discuss in class.

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Jesus Culture - King of Glory

This song really touched my heart tonight, I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. :)

Wonderings...

Lately I have been having some serious thoughts about my future. When I tell people what my major is, they will ask me what exactly it is that I would like to do with my major once I get out of college. I tell everyone that at first I will most likely do some behind stage work at a theater. Then hopefully I will get into designing and then directing. And then my big dream is to own a theater someday.

I can't help but feel silly while telling people my dream in life. I know that is a really large dream, and that it seems nearly impossible. When telling people this, I see the scrutiny in their eyes and the judgement flash across their face, like, 'Does she really think that that is ever going to happen?' And I know it may seem like that to many people. Even sometimes to myself it just seems like a pipe dream. More and more everyday I think about what goes into making a business, all the guidelines and rules that you have to follow, hiring and firing people, paying people, paying all the bills, getting inventory and stock on all the things that you need, advertising, and on top of it all, there is what I want to do with the theater. I want to write, I want to direct, I want to coreograph. This is all so much and so HUGE.

But then, I realize, that God is the One who had put all of this upon my heart, and he is the One who has given me this dream to follow. In 1 Corithians 10:13 it says: "No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he'll never let you be pushed past your limit; he'll always be there to help you come through it." I know this verse is common for those who are going through trials in their lives, and those who feel like the world is crashing down upon them. But I also feel that this verse can apply here as well.

God has given me a dream, and a big one at that. He would not have given me this dream, if it were not something that I could handle, and if it were not something that was feasible for me to do. Now, from where I am in life right now, no I could not do this. But this is why God takes you on a certain path, and a certain course in life. So that you can grow and build yourself up in Christ, and so you can become who you need to be, to fulfill God's plan.

Just remember, that no matter who you are or where your at that God's plan is never too big. He is the creater of the heavens and the earth, and the sky and the sea. And he can help you, to follow your (and his) dreams.

When Life Begins

I have started college this week. It has been a mix of many emotions, most of which I never thought that I would experience whilst going to college. Home has been my biggest problem. I miss it terribly. More than I thought that I would. I knew that I was really close to my family, and I knew that I would miss them but I did not expect the amount of emotion that I felt being seperated from my parents. I wanted to just pack up all of my things and move back home. I did not think that college was going to be fun, and I did not think that I was going to enjoy the year at all. I was already planning ways of tranfering and schools that were closer that I could attend while staying at home.

But after sticking it out I realized just how much I did like college. I do still miss home, quite a lot, but I began enjoying college and all the things that come along with that. I've realized that there is a point when you do have to grow up. Where, no matter how much it does hurt, you must seperate from your parents and begin to become your own person. I have to realize who I am on my own. I can't always have my parents there to guide me and make all of my decisions. There is going to come a point when I am going to have to decide where I want to go, what I want to do, who I want to date, and how I want to live my life. And its not up to my parents to make those decisions. They raised me, and now it is time for me to take all that I have learned and apply it to my life and be strong about it.

So I am going to take this year of college, and I am going to embrace it. I am going to take oppurtunity for the most I can, be the best I can be, and live life the way God intended me to.